Today

Do you think I'm innocent?
Am I a kind person?
Can you picture me yelling at someone?
Do you think I'm rude?
Am I pretty?
Can you imagine me doing something risky?

Most people in my life, when I first meet them, they think I'm this innocent school girl who gets good grades, and does right by her parents. Well I'm quite sorry to bust that perfected bubble, but I'm anything but innocent. I know how to party, and I know how to be a huge bitch. I yell at everyone, and complain about everything. Personally I think I'm gorgeous, which by the way, confidence is a huge factor in being risky. I've done plenty of stupid, risky things in my time. I would tell you, but most are against the law and I rather let you make those stories up.

But if you think about your everyday life, and how people look at you, think about you, judge you, you will never make it. I hate when people are so obsessed with judging other people, sure we all do it, like when a drop dead, omg I would love to have your babies guy is walking in the mall holding a nasty, buck teeth, bad highlighted hair with the wrong color eye shadow on with her top girl, of course your thinking if he's on drugs. So ok do that, but when it comes down to the important things, like how she loves being around her family, but he doesnt. Don't judge that. That's what they know. People start obsessing over other people's ways of life, and that's no way to live because those people are so insecure about themselves they NEED to judge other people. If you are a person who can get by with judgement, you will survive in this world, because the first thing people do when they meet you, is judge. Even if they don't mean to.

Comments I got at work today
I liked you better when I thought you were innocent.
Frenger get the fuck out of here.
I never asked you for advice!
Brittany you need to make a decision, are you coming or not?!
Are you done?
Frenger no one likes you.
Haha you just got sat again.

Now, most of these comments are mean, also said during a period of time when everyone decided to pick on me at once. Most said jokingly, BUT!!!! still I think about them. I know the ones that are kidding are kidding and I personally don't care. Just sometimes even a just kidding has some truth. The first comment: I've worked at Famous Dave's for a year and I've known this person since then, and I never would expect him to say that, and I don't really know what he means. Now that he knows I've done wild things in my life, he's questioning who I am? Just because you find out something about someone should not change your perspective of who that person is. But does it? Frenger get the fuck out of here! Burned. We were close, really close and since I've been upset and concentrating on a lot of issues at home, we haven't really talked. We fight a lot and I wish it wasn't like that at all. He told me I changed and I see what he means, but I can't change the way I am now, just for him esspecially if I like the new me. The last comment was made by someone who just wanted to tease me, and boy I don't mind that at all. He's too cute and too sweet and I love it. I just hope I don't get crushed like all the other times...