<3

If not for you,
Winter would have no spring,
Couldn't hear the robin sing,
I just wouldn't have a clue,
Anyway it wouldn't ring true,
If not for you.
-bob dylan, if not for you

how is it possible that i could feel so safe, but so sad at the same time. this kid is unbelievable, but famous dave's is in a shit whole right now, i rele big one. i lvoe my job and now it could be gone. ugh, this kid is amazing and i hav no idea how to pursue anything, we went out tday and it was fun, we talked for an hour and talked and talked, and each thing he said, i liked him more. idk, im so insecure sometimes, and this is a time im def afraid of osmething. i know if it doesnt work out it wont kill me,, but i want things to fall in place this time, i hope and pray things fall in place, just this one time. i would love to be happy and satified, and ok with how life is. i dnt need it to be perfect all the time, i just don't wanna be alone anymore. i want to have a someone i can take out to family parties or go out to dinner, i just need that. and if he's the one, so be it, but i just this to work out<3