Who Knows

So guys i've been thinking, why does every one in life go around doing things the way "they should" be done. i think its time people start going nutso on every one. i mean chaos is fun, well it is for me. i was and yes i said was, a crazy bitch, who talked about everyone and their moms, but at the same time everyone liked. people told me stories all their stories, or at least most. and i had a piece of garbage on basically everyone in my grade. BUT WHAT HAPPENED?! well everyone moved and now there's new people, but i don't like what i did in the past, bc i literally tore people apart, and it never came back to me. i must say this is very talented to be able to start a huge fight between 2 people and never be pointed out as the one who started it all. and i miss it like crazy because it was fun, i would feel bad eventually and i would always do something to get the two people to forget what happened. but its fun gossip, and i know alot of people hate it which is understandable. but it is alot of fun, esspecially when the gossip is never about you.

well at least the bad gossip was never about me, except once.my car is lik HUGE (ford explorer 2005), its a beaut. and i had a parking spot in the senior parking lot, which is picked randomly, well one of my friends had one too, and he kinda pulled out of his spot right before me, and i kinda didnt reallize and i kinda hit hiscar and left a hugeeeeeeeeeeee dent ! lik my car=huge his car=a pea. it was actually really funny, but i thats mean. haha were still friends and he now has a big car haha
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i drank my sorrows away last night
it was going well until i woke up
everyone has pain, like me
a broken heart
a broken family
it's really the way you handle it
i drank my sorrows away last night
and i'll admit, not one of the brightest ideas
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but i had fun while it lasted, i woke up this morning with achy legs from walking from wantaghs firedepartment to my uncles house, with my uncle. you dont see that very often, a 350 lbs man in a uniform walking home drunk with his niece. stupidity had a lot to do with it, but still it was a good time. just this morning reminded me of more reasons i feel lonely, i hung out with te cutest kid last night, and im not gonna lie, ive had this crush on him since the day i met him. which is a little over a year. hes so funny, smart, really tall, and i love it. hes just not a relationship kinda kid, he dated his ex on and off, but he was cheating on her.. so i knew that would eventually end. and now that hes single, i would love to be like lets hang out alone, but hes retarded and i know he'd like freak out the day b4. .. i kno this is a little, mushy and corny but i just wanna find some1 i could be my self with.

i think, life's a bitch and then you die.
whats the point in trying to make it to the top.
there is none, just to go with the flow
do what you wanna do, but make sure:
you go to college
get good grades
get a job
so you can buy a nice house
get married
have 3 kids
then get a dog
and maybe another kid
then probably get a divorce
find another spouse
and the you eventually die
well i dont kno if im ok with the dying part
or the divorcing part
but this is how most people live their lives
it's sad but true, but what can you do?
live a true life, never be fake.