A Lost Love

She wrote this when she was only 16:

When you fall asleep at night and your staring at the ceiling the wall your pillow whatever it is... what do you think about? Love, hate, what’s going to happen tomorrow, why did things go the way they did today, who you want to punch the crap out of, who are your true friends, who do you like talking to, who do you want to call up right now but are too afraid or it’s too late, who you think is the kindest person in the world and want to get closer to, or your already so close but so far away at the same time... what do you think about ? I think about it all like is it “true love last forever” or is it “love at first sight?” So many people believe and think in so many different things like for instance, I love to love, it’s not when you love someone deeply it’s when you can trust them with everything and truly give your love and hope they return it back and to me trust means the world. You lose my trust you’re lucky if u get a second chance. You lose it again. You’re lucky if you’re someone I still talk to. I used to be a push over with lies like I wouldn’t care if you lied or not, but after my ex-boyfriend my entire outlook on life changed. He was probably one of the biggest liars ever and I kept going back to him. It was like addiction and a bad addiction at that. He pushed me to my lowest point; cheating on me lying every day, not calling, ignoring me in school and when I finally got to the bottom and dumped him I was finally happy. I felt like I was born again as corny as that sounds. I was hanging out with my friends and being me and trusting anyone was the hardest thing ever. But I came to the point where I was like well I can trust until they give me a reason not to and I’m like that now with friends, boys, and even family. I mean not like my mom or dad, but my aunts and uncles I have a huge family and there not only family their friends and when one betrays you, it’s more upsetting then a just your normal friend. But any ways trust is a big deal to me.--

She was always talking about trust, how it's a big part of her life and how relying on one person for the rest of her life would be the hardest thing anyone would do. I loved it when she talked like that, so real. She was not like some genius I know that, but when she spoke about life and what it was, it was unbelievable because everyone around her was thinking it, but she said it and that takes such courage.
She said "Yes, but with one condition." When I asked her to be my wife, my equal, my forever, she said "As long as you promise you'll never disrespect my trust." When she said that I knew she was the one no matter what. I loved her for her trust, if I didn't have her trust I felt like I could never live again.
She's had some hardship in the past, many having to do with trust issues. Her father had left her family when she was only 11 years of age. She's the oldest sibling and she felt she needed to stay strong for her brother and sister, but most of all her mother. She was so young and she matured because of her aunts. Her love for her family is so great. She would do anything for them. It's so nice to know that about someone, that there family will come first no matter what; she would never have left if I could have helped it.