WednesDAYS

It’s a Wednesday. I mentioned your name more than five times, I said “I love him” at least eight times and I thought of you every second of the day. Our worlds are different now, but there was a time when our world was one. It was me and you against everyone else. We were fighters, we were young, and we were in love. You can tell anyone who will listen, that our love could have beat anything back then. So what happened? I want to know what happened to the boy I once gave my heart to because I miss him, because he wasn’t just a boy. He was a man, a gentleman, a best friend. He was everything, he was my everything. Knowing all that I know now I am a better person for knowing him. It’s ok though, I’m ok, I’m going to be ok, everything will be ok, but the thing is sometimes being “ok” is just not enough. And as much as I wish different, I can’t. It’s not me and you against everyone else anymore; it’s me against our friendship, our love, our world. And sometimes I think I need you to pick me up and other times I think I just need to fall. As much as I wish I had you here, I rather you be happy where ever you are and whatever you’re doing. Stay safe and stay you. “You have changed so much that I don’t know if I can call you and tell you I care.”- So Beautiful